he took the risk...
setting: this guy Holden (sha yung nagsabi ng quote sa ibaba) falls
in love with his lesbian friend... tapos ung scene, bibilhan dapat
nung shibs (shibs = lesbian) si Holden ng painting... parang
tinuturuan niya pano tumawad, makipagbargain... tapos parang sabi
nung girl kay Holden na ung painting "is to remind you of us"...
then comes this line...
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I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we're great
friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although
I'm sure that's what you'll call it. And it's not because you're
unattainable.
I love you. Very simple, very truly. You're the epitome of every
attribute and quality I've ever looked for in another person. I know
you think of me as just a friend and crossing that line is the
furthest thing from an option you'd ever consider. But I can't do
this any longer. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold
you. I can't look into your eyes without feeling that longing you
only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you
without wanting to express my love for everything you are. I know
this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended - but I had
to say it, because I've never felt this before, and I like who I am
because of it. And if bringing it to light means we can't hang out
anymore, then that hurts me. But I couldn't allow another day to go
by without getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by
the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And I'll
accept that But I know some part of you is hesitating for a moment,
and if there is a moment of hesitation, that means you feel something
too. All I ask is that you not suppress that - at least for ten
minutes - and try to dwell in it before you dismiss it. There isn't
another soul on this fucking planet who's ever made me the person I
am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance
to take it to the next plateau. Because it's there between you and
me. You can't deny that. And even if we never speak again after
tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of you and what
you've meant to me, which - while I do appreciate it - I'd never need
a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of...
alix | 8:00:00 PM
